I Took A Break: What I Have Been Up To

Hello. I haven't posted since the middle of December it seems. But I am here, full force and thankful for 2018! So here's where I have been and what I have been up to...

Why I Took A Break

After I finally worked up the courage to post about my anxiety, my childhood, my life, my experiences, I needed to take a break. The posts took a lot out of me. I mean the emotions, the memories, things I have yet to talk about in therapy even, were dredged back up.

When you have anxiety, it can be hard to control your feelings. One of the ways I have learned to control my anxiety is to take a step back. And thats what felt right for me with the blog, was to take a step back. I had opened a sore, and poured myself out to the internet, and I needed to let it sink in in order to be able to move forward.

I will probably never read it again, talk about most of it or even worry about it. I finally got it all off my chest and helped a few people, or two, in their own journeys so it's time to leave the past in the past and continue on with my future.

What I Have Been Up To

Work

What have I been up to, if not writing you might ask? Well, I have been working, which working is working, but I actually love my job.

I thought after Victorias Secret I would never find another brand where I was truly happy. Now, I can actually say that I look forward to working again. I am able to manage my stress and my anxiety, also. I mean, its work so it can definitely get stressful but its finally manageable. I don't have panic attacks at the thought of working with people who were toxic to my life anymore. I work with a team of people who are supportive, understanding and also help make me a better person. I can honestly say I am happy again at work.

Writing

I have been reading, of course and also writing daily in a journal, which includes 300 prompts. For the days I am unsure of what to write about, but know I want to write, it gives me ideas which is fun and gets me thinking.

I am able to express myself in ways I never thought I could or never thought I would. Some things are happy and uplifting and some are digging deeper into emotions I never wanted to bring up. But, writing is a release and helps my anxiety.

Living Healthier

Whats the biggest thing I am proud of and have been up to? Losing weight for 2018!

Since January first, I am down 17 pounds as of today! I feel amazing, I have more energy, my anxiety and stress is have been more manageable and I am happy.

Both Sergio and I have been working out, making healthier choices, counting calories and dropping the weight. I am proud of us and knowing I have someone by my side makes the journey even better.

Between work, home, losing weight and everything else happening around me, I can honestly say that I am truly happy. Sure, I have my bad days as well as good, but I am genuinely happy with where I am. I am learning everyday about self-help, happiness, positivity and I am able to grow and mold myself into the person I should be.

At this point I can only look towards the future and continue to grow as a person and continue to find myself, take care of myself and be a healthier and happier me.

Signed Opinionated Fashionista

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